Is This What Love Is??

To be in love is on of the most amazing and purest feelings that one can experience in this weary existence of a life. It’s one of those things that makes you feel better about yourself, that gives you a reason to wake up every morning even though you’re dreading the day. It’s one of those feelings that when you wake up, all you want to do is talk, and not about just anything, but about the person who awoke this feeling in you, the person who never fails to put a smile on your face, the person with whom you feel absolutely and completely free with, not withholding anything that makes you you, the person who makes life worth living.

So yes, love is something that I wish each and everyone of you gets to experience at least once in this life.

Today I was looking for one of my campus documents, and found a love letter that the girl I was with at the time wrote for our future kids and partly for me. Reading that letter took me back to early 2021 when she and I were together and it was blissful just remembering how much I was in love with her and she with me. We’d planned our lives together (as you can clearly imagine) down from the number of kids we’d have, to where they’d go to school, their names and even where we’d live. For us, we were meant to be forever. To be young, naïve and in love was everything I ever imagined it to be. I’d found the girl of my dreams and everything had finally fallen into place. She was the Love of My Life. It’s a pity that it didn’t last, but oh well. I was in love once and that’s all that matters to me.

It’s a feeling that I miss dearly, and I continuously wish on a star (and of course pray about it) that one day, I don’t know when, but that one day, I’ll fall in love again but this time forever. I want it to be the second and last time that I ever do, and I hope that God is with me on this one because like I’ve said time and time again, I have no idea if I can manage being heartbroken again.

What I’m trying to say is this, I believe in love so much because I’ve experienced it, I know what it is, I know what it’s like. I know that it’s something I wish everyone gets to experience in their lives. To have someone that close, someone you know won’t judge you for anything and will love your flaws as much as you hate them, someone who corrects you when you’re wrong without painting you the villain, someone who will love you with each and every ounce of their body, heart, soul and mind. If you don’t believe in love, it pains me to hear that, but I do hope that someone comes along and makes you change your mind.

For those that are too scared to do so again or even try for the first time because of the stories that go around or because of the experience of how nerve racking a heartbreak can be, I hope and pray that one day you open your heart up to be loved by someone. It just might change your life.

To love and to be loved back in equal measure is one of the greatest experiences and feelings. Remember that.

Yours truly,

Tendo